struggle part 2

so it wasn't a couple of weeks, more like a few months but oh well. struggle part 2. struggles are an up and down thing, the moment that i think i'm over one another comes up. sometimes it seems that they mask each other, they are there all along. sometimes i feel its better to deal with only that one problem and not all of them at once but when i look back, they all stem from a similar major problem. sometimes i wish a sheet of paper was delivered at my front door and would say, this is your problem "...(insert struggle)...", fix it right now. but that doesnt happen. they struggle surfaces, not on your weekend off, or the few hours of free time you have that day, the struggles comes up right as you head to class, or when a projects do, during work, or any combination of those. so again struggles will be there, will be part of your life, but they arent your life, they will help mold your life, help create your character, but dont let them be your character, when a struggle comes up, be open to it, talk to others about it, read about it, seek Gods voice in this. dont close yourself off, dont think you are less then any one else, dont become depressed of this, its a struggle, not you, so look at this and be like, awesome i get to rebuild myself to be better and stronger then i was before. just go out and live life and let struggle be just a struggle and nothing more.

struggle

there is always a struggle in some ones life. everything can be going well and they have everything they need. but, but, there is a thing, that one thing, they cant let go they can forgive themselves of, a thing they hide, a thing they show but don't even realize its a problem, a problem with just accepting that one thing. i don't have advice, i don't have a solution, or a 3 step self help guide to find that problem and fix it. all i can say is we have to be more open with others, always. share secrets that may hurt and leave scares that if they are ever let know to others. but we must do this. its not worth the years of self-suffering and internal struggle because they are afraid to let it out. we must join together and share these secrets and trust in other and let others trust ourselves with these secrets. we need accountability with all of this. with out it we will continue into an this self destructive path we are all one. it wont end well. it never has.

i think there might be a second part to this in the coming weeks.

It has been a while...

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photo by me. text from previous entry. photo from trip back home.
... more to come... about my life and its adventures. it may be a bit serious.

...continued...
in the last days this went from being a negetive blog post about being sad and not finding myself to something a pure enjoyment. i really think im on the right path. i was still questioning it for the last few months. but i know this is where im supposed to be in life. i was struggling with some stuff in my mind from just interpersonal to out reach to other. its become alot more evenly lite now. there was a dark shadow on it making it so hard to see the answer to the problem but not that shadow has faded and im starting to adjust and see that answer. its 1230am. and i sit here with my heart up lifted. it was so heavy but not i feel as if i can carry it on and over come the next hills and rough paths in my life . He has taught me so much in the last week. the sermons at status have really pulled through for me. it has allo wed me to understanding who He is and what His plan intended for us. He really has given us every single tool we need to get closer to Him be more like Him and represent Him to others. all we have to do is pick them up and use them.

i think i will write more later (in a new post)

God is amazing.

i miss sara. she will be here soon. i miss my family, michigan, and friends.
love you all
~Michael