So in just under 5 months i will be done with school. i will be an adult with a bachelors of science in digital arts and design. im not done with school for good, im thinking another bs in photography and a mb in business. but i'll be returning home to a place that hasn't changed but isn't for me any more. the people i've known all my life are older, moved away, getting married, started or joined new friend groups, got full time jobs, stopped talking to me or died. i will return "home" to a place completely different. a new house, a new way of life. i'm trying to put these thoughts and emotions to words but its becoming difficult. how to show people that what i know will never be again and who i am can't fit in with how things are back "home". i keep putting home in quotes with out thinking about it. is that my heart/mind telling me that i don't feel like what i called "home" is my home now or that thing i called "home" is extinct in my mind. i should be sleep; i have a project due, a resume to finalize, a meeting for to finalize a quote for a high paying website, a car to get an oil and fuel filter changed and classes, but i can't.
for sometime this thought of "home" has been hitting me; in conversations, when im in class or late at night before bed. what is missing in my life? what has been lost? what can never be again? why is it hard to let that feeling go (even if its good or bad)?
i will return to this later this week.
John 3:16 wasn't for the lost it was for the religious. i really liked hearing that tonight.
~michael
for sometime this thought of "home" has been hitting me; in conversations, when im in class or late at night before bed. what is missing in my life? what has been lost? what can never be again? why is it hard to let that feeling go (even if its good or bad)?
i will return to this later this week.
John 3:16 wasn't for the lost it was for the religious. i really liked hearing that tonight.
~michael
