lost direction

i feel as if im losing my directions. so many things in my life keep going wrong, keep not happening, keep not going the way i thought they should, or the way i thought God wanted them too. im struggling in trusting God, having faith in God, living Gods plan and just doing whats right. i screw up all the time and it seems like more then ever. ive taken things away from people i shouldnt have. ive know i should go to fullsail for about 2 years now and in the last few months i havent been able to get enough money for it. ive need a new car but havent been able to afford one or even get a job to pay for one. i say i want to try more and in the end i try less.

to be continued...